February Already??

I hate searching for jobs. It depresses the shit outa me. It's that whole "stick to it", "see it through thing". Fucks me up every time. Lets think positive, I am so excited for this summer. I have made a decision. I am going to do all the things I promised myself I was going to accomplish last summer but for the benefit of not pissing off others, I refrained from making myself happy. Oh, no. Not this year I say. I am all about me. Me Me and Me again. You know that saying "the future is now"? Well that one and the "life happens when your busy doing something else" those both describe the feeling I am having right now in my life. I'm thinking it's almost February, what the hell did I do with January. Shit I am almost 2 months into the "new year" and I have been dilly dicking around with my plans for the future all the while pissing it away at the same time. Ugh. Its good I caught it early I suppose. A few things I am trying to accomplish for my summer, 1. going white water rafting again (hey, I didn't fall out! I had a great time) Well, I guess thats it. Baby steps. I like to lower the bar so I can insure the feeling of accomplishment. lol